My conversations with the ever-absent D2 are infrequent and fraught with awkward silences. We no longer have that day-to-day mundane interaction to share or joke about, so we get lost in the abundance of stuff and so little time within to tell it. She’s monstrously busy and I’m monstrously trying to fill her absence. D1 and Son give me sideward glances when I beg them to talk to me or sit with me outside and tell me about their day, or come with me to Walmart JUST ONE MORE TIME. I may have to borrow a neighbor kid with whom I could drive around and tell sarcastic bad-driver stories.
The questions that I invent for D2 are different than Hubby’s, but then again they should be. He was in her exact spot a mere 29 years ago, so of course he wants to know what it looks like, have you done this course yet, who is your drill Corporal, blah, blah, blah. My questions are far more important and revolve on actual survival skills that only moms understand: have you made any nice friends? Are you eating enough? How’s the food? Are you getting enough rest? How’s that cleaning, ironing and washing going? Need another bed-making tutorial? (Yes, I actually sent her a tutorial on hospital corners that she shared with her troop mates, since I clearly failed her as a mother and neglected to demonstrate this in person during her ENTIRE LIFE AS MY CHILD) Don’t get sick. Wash your hands all of the time, STAY AWAY FROM THE WEAPONS FIRING AREA. You know, SURVIVAL. I’m thinking for Christmas, I’ll give her a throw pillow that reads: JUMP LIKE DA JESUS. It’s a bit kitschy. She won’t be able to have it on her bed at Depot, since obviously, EVERYONE WILL WANT ONE. I needed a short and catchy phrase, since my embroidery skills are as lacking as my motherly teaching skills. Ugh.
Hubby is entering a new decade today. Fifty is the new I-made-it-this-far-so-may-as-well-get-shitfaced, so there’s that to look forward to. Not that he’s going to drink himself to all out oblivion, but I may be tempted. This new age of being older-than-dirt in the eyes of the youngsters, quite frankly, sucks. I get eye-rolls and the ‘oh, mom’ when I ask about something Millennials with their hipster jeans and Birkenstocks can only decipher. By the way, WHEN DID BIRKENSTOCKS COME BACK AS COOL?! They’re ugly as shit and I don’t understand the appeal. They’re like wearing hard rubberized sole-deforming casts on your feet and if you were TOLD you HAD to wear them as punishment, one would rail against the establishment as being cruel and unusual and anti-freedom-of-feet! I see you shaking your head and holding up your rubberized-foot sling as something I should try and that I’d ‘surely love them as soon as I wear them awhile’ NO. UGLY. AS. SHIT.
I’ve also decided that being over fifty is life’s way of getting back at you for all the crap you said about EVERY ADULT YOU KNEW when you were in your teens. All your eye-rolling, oh-mom comments, ripped jeans, non-sensical friends….STOP DRAWING THAT CIRCLE. I see it.
Your body decides to play games, your now adult kids make fun of you and you finally understand everything your parents ever said to you throughout your entire life and feel the need to spout same to YOUR children/adults. Their time will come when they will say the same thing.
WHO BROUGHT FUGLY
See? Okay, you can draw now.
Cue the Lion King theme song. I’m done.